I've been keeping this for a long time already. Since we've all decided to become ONE.
But I guess, you took "ONE" for granted. Instead, I'm the Only One in this. In this whole array of trauma you've lead me into.

I thank you for giving me the opportunity to feel the burden that life has to offer.
if things don't go as planned, do not put me as the blame. Put it on yourselves for being passive.


That's for that.

Now,my event is barely 2 days away. I'm feeling the anxiety already. And yet there are still so many things to be done.
1) The set up of banner Tomorrow.
2) The printing of flyers.
3) The distributions of flyers.
4) The printing of posters.
5) The location of posters.
6) The back stage design.
7) The script for the MC.
8) The seats.

There. The burden.The traumatic attempt to finish all these by tomorrow.
Yet, we are still being in our own world. Thinking that everything will go as planned.

I wanna move you. So that you'll be able to make things happen.
But i guess, i'll just settle here, at this very corner. And watch you as you sway and dance to the rhythm of your illusions. Illusions that everything will be A-okay.
I wish I could do this all. And not wait for your response. But then again, This is a group project. Urgh. Blame me on my jitters.

The final issue: The Lysander in Midsummer's Night Dream.-For those taking Lit before.
Even if you think that you've changed, then, why didn't I feel at home, like I used to when I'm with you?

I start questioning myself again. At the same time, you bugged me with all your beggings to get back with me. And I'll start to feel all sympathetic for you, Neglecting whatever I feel.

You think you can get back with me by your promises and that sweet smile of yours? You think 3 days is enough to see you change? Accept this: I'm not ready to have your presence here with me.