this is what we call a tragedy

one last paper and i'm done with the sa1.

Quote: "all the anticipation might prove detrimental."

So i wont anticipate anymore?no..?

i dunno.

i was looking forward to the end of this examination but guess i should just allow that thought to slowly fade for a moment till something good and pleasant pops up aight.

STRANGE. how i could get that marks for the multiple choice of bio/chem paper one. it was fine for me. PERFECTLY fine. so i guess i have to just live with it. is this reality? No?

OPTIMISTICOPTIMISTICOPTIMISTICOPTIMISTICOPTIMISTICOPTIMISTIC. RITE......

BE OPTIMISTIC. okey so i was one of the top for malay and i passed bio. but does that matter? it's still a red ink on the report paper.

Am i being too "over"in this thing?. i dunno. possible. but i tried hard for this. at least i took the efforts to memorise the wormy words that have already diffused in my mind rite now.

STRANGE.i didn't study for biology at all and i passed. i cracked a pimple open to just allow the chemistry notes to flow into my face and into the brain vessels..but it didn't work.

stressful late nites of memorising chem notes (Excpt for Moles And Petroleum)has just gone through the alimentary canal of mine.sad.really sad.maybe wat the dad said was true. that all of these had already been planned by the Al-Mighty.okey. maybe i was wrong.maybe those last minute of studying(2 days before the exam) didn't actually work out? possible hypothesis.

i noe that this is just Sa1 but..i still feel the impact mon.(jamaican language)

okey. let's just don't cry over spilt milk. i noe that i wont be scoring much for Sa1. so i'll try to work something out like the girl in the movie:The Tales Of the Unfortunate Events. lol. no. What Lavina said bout me was true. Can't Deny that. she said that i will cry every month.At least once in a month.i have already cried for May. due to the pencilstuckintheassbabboon and the chem marks. so i smsed cutethesaurus telling him what i gt for my science.. Still no Reply. nvm. somerled* was there actually pulling me up in a way or another.mummy is busy with her work.so i can only cry to my dad on the phone. God bless me. oh i kalah hepada si pufferfish.

okey. i had a rough day today. Start off with the typical chinese cab driver. then the entrance to the prefect rm, my first few steps, was greeted with ASSALAMUALAIKUm by this cine yg tak tentu arah. pms kape? then assumed i got no moral cuz i was studying CME. ape merepek je..i dunno. i just got no mood to argue back at him. he's a man. a BIG one. then, saryanah comment him on his face. said it was better and all. so i just said "he went for facial" and BAM! blood go upstairs. his. not mine. can't feel it. then, he called me "barbecued babi". cool rite? a friend calling another friend that.pretty cool.uhm hum. i'll just lay low.dont have time to do all these.o'levels babe.... okey. of course larh i was hurt. really hurt. like the lemon juice has just touched the open wound. but i have aldy mastered tha art of ignoring frm my mum so i'm okey though it was like a bitter pill that i had to swallow. if i could just summarise how i felt, it would be: Im sick of being in the bottom of the cosmic joke but i dont get the punch line.

okey.ill end here.