this is what we call a tragedy

wat darker colour can i get?..
Skip that part.okey.today's monday.and i dun think toiday seems to making any good impacts on me.probably because i can't stop thinking about stuffs..which people my age dun usually think about. sometimes i just hope my day could be better w/o the existence of some species.. during MT class..i had to do another intensive malay worksheet..(i think i begin to hate it but i think its a benefit for me)..Faizal can't stop calling me and always kinda relate me with Afiq,Wat's his prob? oh yes..nowadays or should i say this mth, the rate of me missing my mom is increasing.my dad too..and not to mention Shasha-my sis. i met them at my kuzzie';s party on sat..had quite a great time but guess what?..it ain't enuf.i need loads of love and smotherings from em..oh yes..i promiz my mom i'll have an outing with her some of these days..we need to catch up.oh shit ! i feel like crying..okey.that's that.

Amira...amira..amira...did i do anything wrong? let me see, i told you to try the art of zikir and you started to pop questions such as if there is a purpose of being a muslim nowadays especially in the world that we're leavin in..i replied by saying if you dun think it is..then done lar.. then you started this whole bloody thing that i despise:driftin away.. i dun understand. n you have no comments on me for ypour blog.okey so i assume you are driftin away from me and those people who dun make any diff in your life huh? i dun mean anything to you or i did sumthin wrong taht you have to noit talk bout it????
you know what? i can just be like that pencilstuckintheass babboon and just asure that we are minding our own lives.. i can.but nope.i duuno bout you. i don't know if these words ever diffuse in you and that we can like be on bloody talikng terms again.
if i were to actually think carefully, i should just put all these aside and just focus on o level.. aiya.dunno.

lets get back.today morning i just took a glimpse at cutethesaurus and just c'tinue with my life.isn't it better? but still, i have some lil sparkles for him. still.. i chose to slowly let go. today was okey..but a bit down..like a dull and slow moving day.
i have finally decided to talk to Helena^ but i dunno where to start.it's been ages since we last spoke properly..and i have to finally make e move.. how?...aiaya..iut'll flow hopefully.
Chem test is okey. done.