this is what we call a tragedy

Just finished praying Maghrib and solat hajat. Need to seek help from Allah. to ease my mind. my harsh mentality and the physical tireness. And not forgetting, gd results, loving family, relieve of Atok's gastric... Well i've completed 2 to 3 subs aldy for the Sa1. Geography was quite saddening cuz, i actually memorised the whole of manufacturing. the only damn thing that came out was only 0.5% of what i studied. Thx. So much of Karnataka case study huh? Btw, honestly speaking, i dun think i'll score very well for this [paper]. Well, what's over is over. nho more mourning bout it. English paper one was fine. Fine. fine... talked about National Day.i know i'll pass. Insyaallah.Malay?a lil' bit complicated but, i really hope i can like beat e malayt students who ask me to join e challenge.I honestly think the paper two was really challenging. Words of encouragement: i have been like one of e top students in malay for the whole of three yrs, so that wun be much of a difference. This thur's there'll be LC malay. followedc by S.S e nxt day, Eng 2, maths, chem, bio..I'm SO AFRAID. hopefully i'll conquer PUFFER FISH. She's kinda sending me this bad aura u noe. i can feel it.
Today is dull coloured day. Finished reading e malay bk. i didn't study at all today. just lazing ard on e couch and a bunch of pilllows. Right now, i miss having a partner in life. To go chill out, someone i can rely on in gd and bad times.. Cutethesaurus is focusing on his exams, "short" is in his own world. oh yes. i broke up with Seth. let u noe latr... mayb tml? i'm all alone again. Wish i could go out with my mum or sumthing.. those days..but under circumstances like time, which forbid us..gues, that thot just flew away. Okey. let's dun let emotions control my already dull coloured day. Let's be a bit spoilt for awhile. but honest okey.
tml is labour day. i have no plans. I really wanna go to Orchard-preferbly alone. just have this sentimental time alone.. going to Orchard library, read some bks, buy that Mocha Frap(i like..) and Monkey bread frm Starbucks and just wander ard e streets of Orchard just to get out of the busy world. Then head dwn to esplanade .or Suntec City and get those slippers. If only i dun nid to think of tml, i'd probably spend my money on clothes haha. i'll do this all by for myself cuz my mum won't have the mood to do all these cuz she prefers sleeping than going out doin nothing on Labour's day. Oh yes, maybe ill go to borders and check out new, interesting bks.. check out e cds? then get a magazine?..then travel to Boat quay and go to Esplanade library to read bks on plays, acts.. isn't that fun? well, all quality time by MYSELF.
o h yes. i really want the Nokia 6880.taking photos of the things i see which i like.. right now, imagine i got a BF.
we'll go to e library, just laze ard at Starbuck couch, chit chat, look at things we like,.then hold hands to Boat Quay, talk bout life, reality, probs, jokes,the really farniee ones of course. i dun want my bf to be like trying to be perfect. just be HIMSELF.if that is ever possible....none of e boys in my school meets tht criteria. "short" is too shy and in his own world, Figg and me are two different world.not open and trusting. cutethesaurus? hacks. fat hopee. maybe will. but he told Firdaus he has a gf. too bad. But too bad he can/t open up his heart to me. hahas. Pray it will happen? neah..