this is what we call a tragedy

I wanna settle things with him but i guess, he thinks everything's fine. just put down the phone with him.e second call...I wanna settle my doubts with him.. Yup. So i opened up to him.I hate this crap.Only amira knows my real self at a particular situation.Now him.I told him if i was actually shedding tears or if i was pissed off. i seemed to have like let myself a aeay or something. He's not close to me and i've actually "owned up"regarding how i was feeling. SHIT......But deep down, i just wanna be honest with him cuz..he's my friend and i feel comfortable while talking to him.
Stubborn part of me wants him to dance. But if i was actually wanting to be in shoes(i had to!)..i just have to swallow his bitter pills and just give in to him by saying this"You don't need to dance. I understand your TIGHT situation" I mean i do but i chose not to cuz.. i need him.need his presence and he has the moves. what more. i don't know what i should do now. Seriously.
Somerled's the name.
somerled*pls dance...pls dance.. pls dance.. pls dance.. pls dance.......
[you're just a part of me i can't let go]

it's times like this that i need him to be with me. no.. not Somerled*.But too bad that we're just friends and that i can't actually rely on him to comfort me. But still.. his voice, the way he speaks.. mesmorized me.Aslinda draw the line.
He SEES ME AS NOTHING BUT A VAGUE DOLL.
i'm being emotional? You call that emotional? of course i am but come look at it at my perspective. i wan the dance to be well.and suddenly one person's decides to "backout". you're sad bcuz you understand his situation but you can't comply it bcuz you are selfish but you really want him to dance bcuz he has the presence . and you call that emotional?.yesss thank you. PARDON ME. i'm being emotional?.am i? am i ? am i? am i ?
Accident's that happen, they follow the dot.
i'm absorbing archaic like a sponge.
Maybe i';m looking only at my direction.
no. i should be CONSIDERATE and put aside how i feel and understand him.