this is what we call a tragedy

My personal diary's gonna end soon.. that means thee start of all new inspirations for e whole new decorazshones.raudhah just called just now..Need my advice-she's undergoing a kind of complicated friendship thang with Adilah and all..It's kind of the same situation i'd experienced when i was with Jia hui in Sec2..i don't know how to put this but i've got loads of physical and a lil' bit of mental similarities as Raudhah.. I think a bit like amira..and a psychologic part of my mum.Sometimes, i stop & ponder on what God has created for me:-pple whom i can relate to easily especially pple like raudhah, mum, dad, amira, firdaus..They're like the key which opens up my heart to all new chapters in life.>>>>listening to CVALda now..Well..i think i like her music and god noes if i'd change the taste of music soon..I don't know. Who noes if i'll stop listening to cult metal and go move on to Bjork..?..haha.maybe her songs made sense to my life that i'm currently leading.I'm thinking of loads of things now..Like mostly about e fast moving days during this holiday, my O'level preparations, my desperation of getting a maths tutor, my coomitments and basically my focus. My mind is so saturated with all the useless disparity.I'm rellay worried about my o'level. and i mean REALLY. What if i got retained or something..?I don't think i will be because i honestly don't think in that perspective. i'm just influenced by what the pple ard me thinks. So ya. Actually, i have the confidence to pass this o'levels but failing my maths and the after effects scares me.

Today, i didn't turn up for social studies remedial because i woke up kinda late. There's no biology remedial because Mr Peterson's down in the hospital with low blood pressure- well that's what he told ruth. my whole day went away just like that. i was spending most 0f my time at raudhah's house with amira and firdy ,practising our dance for the bloody investiture. E song we're dancing is "i'm good" by blaque. We wanted to do a remix but guess most of them can't dance to that ya.
>>>>>intermission: You cannot kill what you did not create.
i donno if i'm going to suffer from malnutrition soon.. I've not been eating healthily and well since my parents went back to Sengkang. I donno. Guess i feel hungry and since no ones at home cooking, i end up eating what i grabbed: chocolates.. sweets.. carbohydrates.. or maggie.
My allowances are basically a question.I wonder if i'll survive to like have some remainders by the end of this month. I didn't spend wisely this month..
Oh ya, in the morning, I kinda bumped into Mr perfect with his gang. Going to the opposite shop to take a break and all..Honestly, i feel awkward. like i donno to smile at him or just look at the other direction. hmmmm.. what else can i say.. someone's a bugfcuker. can't understand him.
chao.Insanity.